First off, I just gotta share what's going through my head. When something doesn't feel right or i'm frustrated with a person or situation, I totally self reflect. Sometimes it's before hand and sometimes it's after the fact. I'm always putting myself in someone else'e shoes or trying to figure out if there is something i've done wrong or something I can change or improve upon... stuff like that. Well.. lately i've been reflecting on my own friendliness. This may be hard to believe, but i'm shy by nature. I like people and love meeting new people, but sometimes I just don't know what to say. Sometimes i'm even insecure about what I have to offer that other person. I love friends and having them has always been very important to me. I'm somewhat new around here and i've come from a place that I knew everyone for all of my life. People here are super friendly, don't get me wrong, but sometimes I wonder if I'M friendly enough.. approachable enough.. It seems to take me longer than others to not have to work so hard at making good solid friendships. I guess that would be the part where I let go and let God. Hummmm... I wonder if I am just being hard on myself (which is entirely possible), or if God is trying to open my eyes up and show me something... I like learning and growing. I'm not afraid to face the truth. Lord, open my eyes and make this wondering clear to me.
Now that I've gotten that off my chest.. it's picture time!! Jason and I had a wonderful weekend. Saturday was super relaxing. Friday night I stayed up super late to watch the super long opening ceremonies of the Summer Olympics in London. What a show! Here are some photo highlights:
Saturday, after a little bit of this
we visited some friends of ours on their ranch. Yep, a ranch. I definately felt like Pioneer Woman as we rode through the rolling hills in a giant shiny red pickup to go and shoot turtles at the pond. It was fun! I can tell you now.. I didn't kill any turtles! I promise! I'm just plain not skilled enough.. yet...
I must say.. I'm going to have to write a whole other post about my recent obsession with The Pioneer Woman. It's coming soon..
Sunday we went to a 10 year old birthday party for our friend Kelsie at the bowling alley.
This girl totally amazes me with her sensitivity to the Lord. Jason and I help in the AM kids connection servies every 4th Sunday and I have to share that this sweet girl always comes to the alter with such sincerity.. it's quite the prescious moment. God's got something special for her. I just know it.
Back to the bowling alley.... two cuties- in very different ways!
2 comments:
I know what you mean. Not unlike you, my husband is my very best friend, but he does hate the mall, and target, and coffee shops, and fussy luncheons ...
Sometimes I wonder if my levels of friendship are altered because I need to focus on and depend more on God. I suppose I tend to take these awkward times to draw closer to Him. I have heard over and over in my mind lately that He is the friend that is closer than a brother, so I have just been telling Him my struggles and my joys. One day I caught myself saying 'Lord! I just wish I had someone to talk to!' And immediately I was convicted that I do and I should already go to Him first, above all. I have recently asked God to give me a true kindred spirit, an earthly gift of friendship that I can treasure. But until then I learn to rely on Him more.
Thanks for your honest response Jessica. I really appreicate that. =) It feels good to know that i'm not alone in some of these feelings. I say a big AMEN to the fact that God just allows for fluctuations in friendships to draw us closer to him. I love that. =)
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