Sad

It's raining outside and my mood equals the gloomy weather. Jillian the bachelorette picked the wrong dude!! Most women in america would agree.. Ed just isn't quite the package that Kiptyn or Reid were. I don't think they will last. Super bummed!!!!!!!!!!!!!

All will be redeemed if Kiptyn is chosen for the new bachelor. Love him!! He's definately the total package. Lots of women will sign up for him.

Finding love and working with kiddos.

Tonight is the finale for the Bachelorette!!! ahhh!!! Jennifer and I sent excited e-mails at the exact same time. We so think alike!! We are having a fellow Bachelorette Junkie Tivo it and then going over to watch it along with munchies after VBS tonight. I'm so nervous and have no clue who she will pick! It's usually easier to tell on the last episode. We'll see... i'm just scared to death it's the dude that I dont like. He's given her much more of his heart. In my opinion, he's the safe choice, but may not be the right one for a lasting love. He seems a little flaky. He left the show in the middle because of a work thing, then came back and was all of a sudden saying he loved her. I don't know ... a little scary. But really.. I don't know any of these people, even though I act like I do. And it's not my opinion that they'll follow or even care about. ha! I'm so silly. I guess i feel the need to get into someone else's romantic life since I don't have one of my own. But really.. I think i'll enjoy these kind of shows even after I'm married and have kids.. Like Charlotte and Jennifer. =)

Another fun thing for the week is the fact that i'm helping out with VBS. Me and the Digirolamo sisters are in charge of the music and memory verse room. =) How fun! We are teaching motions to the very long song that they are learning and It's like doing an hour long aerobic session. I guess I won't have to go to the gym this week.

LIVE!!

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.
You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too,
so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love
for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone
you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every
sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.
Don't be afraid that your life will end,
be afraid that it will never begin.

My Vice

I need to start blogging at home. That's where the interesting pictures are. That and I've had a day where I can accumulate stories and interesting scenarios. I am excited about getting my upstairs lair painted. Mom and I went yesterday to pick out some paint and she's going to start on it today. I'm tired of looking at blotchy walls! I have this whole vision for my upstairs landing and for the den. I am excited to see it all come together. The main thing is $$. When I move in somewhere new I like to get it all set up and pretty right away.. that is when it really feels like home. I will have to practice patience to get what I really want and not spend a fortune. That's my vice for sure.. Shopping!! I get the vision and it's hard for me to hold back! I think another part of it is my age.. I want to "Nest" and set up house. It's a natural God-given desire. Not only is it natural, but it's just part of who I am.

I have so many things I love to do, but money gets in the way. I have decided that I am an expensive girl. I like to own and to do expensive things. It's a good thing I’m getting my masters!! I wish I could fast forward a year or so and start on that degree now!! I'm ready to move forward!!

Man Drama

OK.. I really haven't written two blogs today.. I actually wrote the other one yesterday with the intentions of adding pictures before the post but didn't. I will add them once I am at home. It's really hard for me to want to get on the computer once i'm home when I've been sitting at my computer all day!! I have a lot of energy to burn. I consider myself a pretty active person. I always like to have a project.. otherwise.. i'm very bored!

Anyway.. I watched The Bachelorette- The Men tell all the other night and had some thoughts to share: First of all.. there was waaaay too much drama for a bunch of men. I don't know how much of it is actually staged.. but really.. how much of that can you really make up? They were going on and on about "Man Code" how you don't dis the other men to hang out in your room, or rat out another guy who is cheating.. I mean how immature can they be?! A lot of them were giving this one guy a hard time because he let the bachelorette know that one of the guys in the house had a girlfriend. They were also ragging on him because he was too perfect... too much of a gentleman. He had the most character of all of them!! If you want my opinoin they were all jealous!! The women in the audience and in all the blogs I've read.. absolutely love him! He would be a wonderful next bachelor! Oh.. and I'm so excited because the previews for the final episode show the profile of my favorite guy, Reid, with a ring in his hand. Even though he was let go, it looks like he's coming back!! woo hoo!!

Yes, it's silly that I care so much about this reality show, but hey, it's fun!! =) I hope that Jillian makes the right decision!

Priceless

Just came off of a FABULOUS birthday weekend! I just have to say how blessed I am to have some amazing friends. Each day came more well-wishers and birthday greetings and gifts. Thank goodness for Facebook to remind everyone! I just felt so loved. I have always been the giver and the affirmer and sometimes didn't feel the love in return. Well.. it wasn't the case this year. I saw how blessed I am. It seemed like everyone remembered and did something to show me how much they cared. I feel so blessed to have such incredible people in my life. God is so good. So if you are one of those people reading this, thank-you for being you and for being my friend! I am made for close friendships, but I also realize that God wants me to rely on him for that perfect peace, that perfect friendship. When others can't be there.. God is. I am so thankful that God distanced my friends for a little while to remind me that he's always there.. to train me to look to him over everything else for joy. I have that intimate, unshakable relationship with him. I don't want to be that person who only comes to God when things aren't going so right. I want that consistent relationship with God NO MATTER WHAT! God is faithful to provide for all of my needs.. he knows exactly what people to bring into my life and when. I am so thankful for that. He knows my heart. I pray that he always challenges me with someone new, something new.. I never want to stop growing. In Jesus name!!

All things for the Good.

I am so blessed to have some amazing women in my life!! I planned a b-day celebration at a swanky little restaurant last night and decided to invite the ladies that are most important to me. There ended up being 6 of us. We sat and laughed and shared and enjoyed a meal together. Such a simple thing was just so much fun. ... so refreshing. I finally feel that I have a solid group of friends around me again here in Memphis. When I cam home after graduating from college then living away for two years.. I had a tough time finding my place. Now that I have been here for about 4 years, I finally am feeling I have a spot. Granted, not everyone is in the same place, but that's what being an adult is all about. I appreciate the fact that i have friends in all different walks of life.. different phases and different circumstances. We learn from each other. I like the variety. Being a part of a click isn't so satisfying.. you don't get the round of people that you should have. God knows what's importatnt to me. I'm a people person and having those close relationships is a big deal to me. It always has been. The importatnt thing is, that I don't let that get in the way of putting God #1.

I want to be able to rely on God alone for my joy, for my peace. I should never have to only rely on others. People will let you down. The past couple of years, God took me to a place where others weren't there so much and it was just me and him. I am SO THANKFUL for that time!! It was tough, but God was conditioning me to rely solely on him.. and wow.. what an experience it's been! God knows exactly what he's doing. He works all things out for the good of those who love him. Even when the pain is unbearable.. it's for the good!! Stick with it, continue to minister and serve, and God will bless you for it!!